What do you do? ASD, ADHD, Psychotic episodes, substances, lies, anger, accusations…just some of the last 4 days of parenting. Apologies normal blogs will resume at some point as I have so much good stuff but it’s being buried at the moment.
Too open, brutally honest ? Maybe but welcome to my life, our life, pressures, oh and then there’s work but I like my teaching. I want to be there. I don’t want to be curled up in a ball but it would be so easy, pull back, withdraw, hide.
I have friends on Twitter with who I share a propensity for depression #BD. we support each other, look out, check up on, ring, tweet, mail to help each other. For me one of the most powerful groups to come out of my tweeting but not one you can easily stand up in front of the staff at a workshop and say. Yes, mock me for tweeting but you don’t know what it’s like being in my head at times. I take anti-depressants I’ve given up on the whole I’m going to come off them crusade because there are too many rocky paths, too many glitches, they are my stabilisers, my buoyancy aid. This weekend their support was tested and as well as my great partner they helped.
What is this small post about? It’s a cry, a bleat, a blip. It’s the reason career plans stalled and withered. It’s a cause for my need to meet inspiring people online and in person. I have so much to offer but be patient because sometimes there’s a great big wall in the way that I have to get over, around, under, through before I can be.
Just remember, life is a one time opportunity, warts and all.
If you’ve read to here, thank you.